Faith & Family Church/The Sheraton Park South

Buckroe Beach

Gotta remind myself…

So, we’re in the thick of a deployment.  To say it is hard is a severe understatement.  While missing hubby is the toughest, the most challenging part is not having others near me who understand.  Friends and family may try to understand my feelings, but no one (except a therapist) is equipped to this type of issue. 

For some reason, knowing that others are dealing with your most pressing issue helps.  I guess misery does love company.  Huge thanks to modern technology that has taken the stereotype of a stuffy support group to a closed FB group where others can connect whenever they want with others from all around the world.  My greatest support group now is the other women dealing with this deployment that I have connected with.  While I am certain I may never meet any of them, I feel close to them.  It is somehow comforting to know that many of us are processing through the same feelings and the peaks and valleys of this ridiculous emotional roller-coaster.

While I feel alone, I remind myself that God never leaves me nor forsakes me.  The loneliness is hard to shake but and no matter what the facts are, I must remind myself of the truth.  While it may be a fact that my husband lives 7,000+ miles away from me, the truth is God is with me and feels what I feel on a daily basis.  I take comfort in knowing He is there, He loves me, and He sees me.

Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.

New Light Baptist Church & The Marquee

Studio time with the Terrific Twos

These two little ones were so much fun to hang with for the afternoon.  While it was challenging to get both of their attention to take a decent portrait, I love how their inattention is indicative of just how precious this age is.  My little one (as I'm sure every mother knows) is investigative of EVERYTHING!!  At this point I simply do my best to answer the, "What's that?" question...repeatedly :-)

Faith & Family Church/Artworks

Spring Valley Country Club

Simply Put

Beautiful Tree (SOOC)

A part of me misses that tree.  The hard part about it is that even if I went back to where that tree is rooted, it won’t be the same.  As a wife dealing with this separation is tougher than I could ever imagine.  I’m working full-time, part-time not to mention the job of mommy.  Needless to say, I’m exhausted.  I’ve relocated back home and tried to resume some sort of normalcy; however, it’s more work than I anticipated.

This is the tree where we walked as a family (the three of us).  This is where we’d go to get fresh air and bond knowing that this time of separation was near.  Simply put, separations are terrible.  I’m truly counting the days.